Why do we need a blog on an NGO website…? Because an NGO’s activity practically survives due to donations. We have been invited to hold conferences, to have our own broadcast in the air on several TV channels, radio, online etc. I categorically refuse! Why? Because we are supposed to involve amounts of money, energy, people, time and many other things in order to hold a conference, for example. A site, on the other hand, offers me the opportunity of an online conference, if you wish. Why spending useless the amounts of money from our donators, earned by them with hard work, in order to collect other amounts, why losing time with organizing such events, time also lost by our audience, when, comfortably, with less resources, from bed, armchair or office seat, while on train or tram, airplane or a bench in our beloved park, having a coffee or… any place that gives us food for our souls, at a click distance, everybody can find out what they are interested in? Why spending time, infinitely coffee breaking, when some of our audience are no coffee or tea drinkers, or they may have other preferences? Why lying to them with a few crafty words, a biscuit for the most, or a leaflet, a flyer about a book that they are willing to pay for anyway, just for the sake of determining each and every one to donate large amounts and not according to their possibility or heartiness, putting a pressure on their hearts to do things our way, a thing that God doesn’t! Why posing a wide and warm smile on the outside, but bitter inside, trying to prove what I cannot even prove myself, the fact that I AM HUMAN and I deserve more than a mere smile… maybe applauses, money, appreciation… giving autographs and listening to things I wouldn’t, selling my heart’s freedom, the precious drop of meekness God has endowed me with, and my dignity for having them, or for the money which, I dare think, would justify all this false, deceitful self-engagement which is not at all to God’s liking? Why not allowing everyone, better, do whatever their hearts desire, do what they are able to, the little they have a possibility for, or not, just because Above, no matter how much one gives, one’s heartiness is appreciated, and not the amount of money one wraps up in an envelope or writes a cheque for? Why, if God Himself endowed man with freedom (the freedom of choosing good instead of evil), should I believe that by pushing things up I am going to receive more? Indeed, I have the rhetoric, it is within me, the needed skills for the making of a sound speech, too… but is this right? Is it fair to the listener? I keep wondering… am I not being, in this case, a deceitful person hoping to get funds, even for a noble cause, by means other than spiritually noble, my core speaking subject?
Thinking and deeply thinking again, maybe for too long a time, I say: there will be no conferences unless we organize them, DECENT Association, due to the fact that our donators, whose money have to be used in organizing such events, have been working hard for it; I would rather help someone poor or invest it in a child’s education, comfort a sad lonely mother with a child or an old man in illness, or simply use it for an animal cub without shelter, a wrecked church building, or a student-to-be with no money for education… cannot we do a lot with money? I will no more be part of TV shows if they are paid by DECENT Association because money and allocated time can be managed a way lot more efficiently. Surely, one of DECENT Association’s statutory objectives is not just offer financial help, but contribute to education, including the spiritual one; however, we are not following any trends, the way many would ask, but simply and in soul purity, as it is possible to us, imperfect ones.
I will leave our activity to your appreciation or not, the fulfilment of your projects through our actions, whether donate or not, and if you donate in order to help, for keeping us active and for our projects, do it the way you feel and as much you feel, according to your heartiness, your devotion, passion or love, inclinations to whatever we, the Association members, propose, having been inspired by you! Do it joyfully, with love, no matter how much sorrow you see, speak about or come across. Life has its favourable moments and more than these, unfavourable ones, out of which we should extract the myrrh of love they were all made with, gaining experience in further healing the hearts and lives of many. On the sea of life there is sun, good weather but also storms, even wild ones… the important thing is to walk, at least for a minute, for a while, like Peter, on its still surface, without drowning, believing in the power of love, unity and God! May God bless you for all the good things you are doing, we wish that you conquer Heaven even in this life, even on earth! AT LEAST THIS! This is all we can give God back… but it is so little… forgive us!